Life and death are very real, very close here on the
farm. I am still getting used to that. Two weeks ago we had two lambs and were
faltering badly in the local lamb marathon. Then we had twins. Our very first
twins here on the farm. Adorable doesn’t even begin to describe them. You can
see their picture below. And they aren’t afraid of me – yet. I am sure that Dad
will teach them caution soon enough but for now they caper gladly toward me
while their mum stands stoically and watch.
I am entranced with them. I watch them for hours every
day. I love to see them each nursing from a different side of the ewe, tails
wagging fiercely and mum continuing to graze. And the older two black lambs
grow bigger and more independent every day. They jump, they cavort, they
occasionally nurse but more and more their appetites are stimulated by grass.
One afternoon as I was coming back from checking the
steers (all present and accounted for) I heard this bleating from our pasture.
I watched the white ewe call for her black lamb. She wandered all over the
paddock. She repeatedly entered the horse stalls, her plaintive bleats echoing
through the rafters.
I thought perhaps the lamb had wandered into the next
paddock. The other sheep were slow to move into the forest paddock but I had
left the gate open and knew that sooner or later they would become more
adventurous and enter. Perhaps the black lamb had led the way and mum didn’t
realize it. So I donned my boots (long, long grass in that paddock) and set off
to find Livingston. I walked every inch of the forest paddock. No lamb. I then
widened my search to the barn paddock where the flock were grazing. No lamb.
Finally I entered the horse stalls and found Livingston.
He was lying between two bales of hay and looked asleep
but had died. There was a white bubble around his nostrils. From this I
surmised that he had been inadvertently smothered, probably by his mother when
she rolled over on him during the night.
He had grown so big that I had to drag him out. I
couldn’t carry him, or perhaps I didn’t want to. He had been so cute and cuddly
and everything a lamb should be. It made me very sad to see him dead. I
understand livestock death in the abstract but for some reason it really hurts
my heart when I see the reality.
Anyway, I reported to command central for instructions.
Dan said that he couldn’t get up to the farm for several days so I would have
to bury Livingston. All right but where? It has rained for a month solid and I
walk through swamp land with every step. Not ideal for digging. We settle on a
spot and I get the wheelbarrow and wrestle the lamb in for his final ride.
The hole digging was as hard as I had imagined but it got
done and I did my best for the lamb. But his mother’s cries continued all day
and into the night and I couldn’t sleep. I feel as if I am growing more aware
of the natural world around me as I grow older rather than cocooning as so many
pundits say we do as we approach our “declining” years. The big 70 is
approaching and I feel as if I know less rather than more now.
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